My Blog, plz listen to me as I’m suffering from loneliness, although I’ve a lot of ppl around me and am sure that they truly love me … But the problem that they don’t understand me…
Everyone see the problem in his viewpoint , then try to help me getting a solution in the way of what brain say, they couldn’t feel me as they are soo far of me…
Mum always think that I’m still a kid, she don’t understand me or even try to do, meanwhile there are a lot of problems and now distances started to be away ..!!
“I Love my mum soooo much, and I always want to make her happy, but she doesn’t want.. I also know that she wanna see me happy and has all the goods in life, but she thinks that this kind of happiness is achieved by giving me a new thing like gift.. then when we reach to the point that we can’t understand each other, she thinks that I’m an ugly girl , as she want me happy and make all her best to bless me , and I cause her a lot of pains…. :(” So we suffer from many problems..!
Dad is totally convinced that I’m such a complicated girl who suffer from many problems in her life and her life is complex, although I’m not. when I try to change this idea, he doesn’t believe me 😀 .. He has a great family, so he doesn’t care about me and this is the fact that I understand it well and haven’t any problems with it :S.. By the way, my dad also thinks that happiness by money, but I don’t need your money dad. I just need you..!!
ppl around me are used to blame me, as in their viewpoint that I’ve to make the first step “ana ma3rafsh eh hya el step de aslan” , but all I know that there is a huge bridge between me and my dad :(..!
I love you my dad, but I can’t say it, because you don’t give me the chance to say it & also the time is passed 😦
He doesn’t know me well to understand me and also I’m…So, he may see me such an ugly girl 😦
All what I want to say that the idea of being an ugly girl makes me disappointed and depressed, bcoz I’m not
I always try to be that girl who honours her parents for the sake of Allah, but they oblige me to do another thing which I hate to do. Both feel that I don’t love them, but I swear I love them soo much , but all the problem that they don’t give themselves a chance to believe 😦
**I don’t mean that they are bad, they are the best parents in my eyes, as they want me happy , but in their way ..!
Till that time I don’t find the person who gives me everything and understand me well. By the way, am not difficult.. :S
momkn law 7ad 2ara el kalam dh y2ol 3laya bnt msh kwaysa bas ana ma5no2aaaaaaa gedan w msh la2ya ely yfhamny w msh kol shoaya ha3od ashtky ana mb7bsh akon el bnt el ka2eba ely 3alatool btshtky w b2et atkasf mn kotr mana mday2a eny a7ky.. b2et a5aby w m2olsh l 7ad bas 7assa eny hanfgr mn kotr ely gwaya, 3lshan keda katabt ely gwaya hna, 7ata akon etkalmt m3a 7ad …!
I’m not angel too, but that’s over 😦 😦
“Love you my parents”