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!حــــــــــاله

May 14, 2012 by Gehad

!أن تشعر بوجع قلبـــك
!أن تنظر لنفسك في المرآه و تدمع عينيك و تشعر بالانكسار
أن يتصدر الموت أولى أمنياتك لكن تخــاف أن تخسر الآخره و الدنيا فترحله لآخر أمنياتك داعيآ الله أن يعجل به و يحسن خاتمتـــك
!أن يجرحك كل من حولك و يذكرك بمساوئ الحياه معك
!أن تشعر بالمرض و أنت بكــــامل صحتك
أن يكون سريرك هو ملاذك الوحيد حيث تظل عاكفا به تبكي و تبكي حتى تنام جثه هامده و تستيقظ بلا روح و بلا رغبه في الحيــاه
!أن تشعر بالشيخوخه و أنت في العشرين من عمرك
!أن تتجمع كل المشاعر السيئه في قلبك في وقت واحد
!أن يسيطر عليك اليأس و الاحباط في أول طريق حياتك
!أن تشعر بأنك خالي من الداخل… خالي من كل شئ الا الأحزان
أن يرحل كل من تحب امــا الى الدار الآخره و امــا الى دنيا أخري ، و أن يتركو لك أجمل الذكريـــــات التى يقتلك تذكرها حين لا تملك سوى تذكرها و البكـــاء آملا في العوده المستحيله
!أن تكره التعامل مع كل من حولك اما لأنهم يؤذونك أو تخاف أنت تؤذيهم فتكره التعامل معهم جميعــــا
!أن تخــاف البوح بما في داخلك حتى لا يسخر منك من حولك
!أن تكره الكلام و تشعر بثقل في لسانك
!أن تشعر بأنك مثل المهرج المجبر على اسعــاد الناس حتى لو كان هو نفسه تعيس
!أن تشعر بأنك منافق لأنك تتصنع الابتسامه ليس لأنك لا تحبهم بل لأنك لم تعد قادر على الابتسام من قلبك
!أن تخـــاف الحب و تكــــره أحلامـــك
!أن تكره البنت الفستــان الأبيض حيث الفرحه التي يتمناها جميع نســاء الأرض
!أن ترى كل شئ مظلم من حولك ليس لعدم الرضــــا و لكن لأن عينيك لم تعد تحب أن ترى نورآ فترى كل شــئ مظلمــ
!أن لا ترغب في الفرحه و تكرهها لأنها حتما ستنتهي نهــايه سيئه كالعــاده و مــا أكثر النهايات السيئه
!أن تحتـــاج أحدهم و لا تجده فتعود نفسك على العيش وحيدآ و ألا تحتـــاج لهم
!أن يتعجب من حولك لمـــا أنت حزين و يعتقدون بأنك تحب العيش في حزن دائم
!أن تدمع عينيك لموقف تافه في التلفــاز أو لأغنيه ليس لها علاقه بحالتك لكن فقط رغبه في البكــــاء

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A Message Written With Tears!

November 9, 2011 by Gehad

To my Friend’s Fiance,

Once you came I was so happy for my friend and congratulated her with a heart full of happiness and I prayed for her to be happy with you! But after that and to be honest with you, I started to be angry with you! YES I’m!

Because you took her away of me, you took the light of my life, you took my LOVE , you took the only source of my breath …. Simply, you took myself away of me!

*Sigh*

Look, I’ll try to forgive you , if only you promised me to take care of my beautiful girl and achieve her Happily Ever After which she always dream of [she truly deserve it] … and NEVER EVER yell on her, because she’s sensitive, beautiful and worth to hear only beautiful words, and don’t worry she’ll not make anything annoy you, and if this happen, she’ll excuse in her special way which will oblige you to forget everything in a second and love her more and more

P.S. ==> If once you bothered her ” I wish it’ll not happen inshAllah” Relax, take a very long breath, Say “Astaghferu Allah” and bring her some flowers ♥Tulip♥ and tell her that you LOVE her, she’ll be happy believe me because she’s beautiful and the little beautiful things make her happy!

I guarantee you that you’ll be the happiest man ever with my beautiful girl!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, Take Care of My Sister and make her happy as possible as you can!

and remember always that Allah truly Loves you by giving you such beautiful gift ♥Mona♥

Love you my sweet friend more than myself because you’re the sweet friend beyond all my dreams

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They All Leave, Sadly!

October 21, 2011 by Gehad

Throughout the little years I lived in this weird life, I’ve just found that everyone Leaves!

I lost a lot of people , they suddenly Leave without giving any excuses..

Those who leave, because they died, I really miss them.

Those who leave, because they no longer love us,

Those who leave, because they’ve a new person more important for them than us to care about! “This feeling really kills me“

Those who leave, because the problems of their life obliged them to be busy all the time and have no time to ask bout us!

Those who leave, because they found a new comfort zone, more comfortable than ours, :\

Those who leave, because it’s our destiny to lose them,

At last, Everyone is gonna leave even me.. I just realized how much leaving hurts, and I’m really afraid of the coming moment I’ll lose anyone i love!

I know it’s the nature of life and it’s the fatalism which we’ve to believe in and I say Alhamdulillah for everything, but it really hurts .. It hurts to death!

Ya Allah Save those who are around me , and I love them . I don’t wanna lose anyone else!

P.S. :- I was totally convinced that if I lost someone I love, I’ll never be able to complete my life and may be I’ll die after him, but in fact, No one die for losing anyone whatever how much he loved him.. This is a lesson I’ve got from the life!

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Today My Life Begins!

September 13, 2011 by Gehad

I’ve been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart’s been done so wrong
i wondered if I
I’d ever heal again
oh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins ~~

yesterday has come and gone
and I’ve learn how to leave it where it is
and I see that I was wrong
for ever doubting I could win
oh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me I can feel a change

life’s to short to have regrets

so I’m learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget

only have one life to live

so you better make the best of it

~ Bruno Mars ~

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I Believe…

August 10, 2011 by Gehad

I believe in the sun
even when it is not shining
And I believe in love,
even when there’s no one there.
And I believe in God,
even when He is silent. ♥

I believe through any trial,
there is always a way
But sometimes in this suffering
and hopeless despair
My heart cries for shelter,
to know someone’s there
But a voice rises within me, saying hold on
my child, I’ll give you strength,
I’ll give you hope. Just stay a little while. ♥

I believe in the sun
even when it is not shining
And I believe in love
even when there’s no one there
But I believe in God
even when he is silent
I believe through any trial
there is always a way. ♥

May there someday be sunshine
May there someday be happiness
May there someday be love
May there someday be peace..♥

[Quoting Friend]

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Critical Case!

July 20, 2011 by Gehad

Actually, I feel that I Lost everything even expressing what I feel, but I used to write to feel better.

What I feel now is a case of unconscious, I’m alive and my eyes are opened and also my mind is awake, but in fact I can’t see anything or even feel what the people do around me, I laugh loudly all the time waiting the moment that I’ll be alone to cry in silence , many times I walk out with my friends playing & joking , but I do that not with my soul but only with my body ….

I feel that I’m a body with a dead soul

I feel that everything became dark in my eyes, nothing cheer me up whatever it was, as I don’t wanna talk to anyone.

I only wanna cry all the time to feel better, although crying no longer heal!!

I was strong before and I was known that I’m the girl of the good smile & never stop laughing loudly and make all the people around her happy , but now I don’t know what happened to me ?!

why I’ve totally changed ?!

why I’m Lost like that ?!

may be I know the reason , but I try to forget it!

I try to overcome that feeling , but I swear I can’t

I trust in Allah and that He will make me pass fast from that tribulation , because He is the Only One Who know what’s inside me and He’s the Only One Who able to heal it…

This is not disobedience, but it’s stronger than bearing it

__Alhamdulillah__